tocalaguitara

Thu, 01 Nov 2007 16:43:46 GMT

a large penis is both a blessing and a curse

Mon, 22 Oct 2007 14:02:54 GMT

I seriously need a good lay. I really do. I think what I need is a fuck buddy. I've got too strong of a sex drive to be alone.

Sun, 21 Oct 2007 04:42:34 GMT

I give up. I really do. I'm done trying. With anything. Life..... is it really worth the effort and the pain? No matter how hard I try, I get nowhere. Just please tell me, why is it worth it? What evidence is there to show that it's actually worth it? Because I see nothing but lonesomness and bleak career prospects ahead of me. No matter how hard I try with anything, there will be people that have more success and put in less effort and recieve everything I'm reaching for. Fuck it, I'm done with women, I'm done with relationships in general. I hope that I actually do have testicular cancer so they chop off my balls and I have no more sex drive. That would be such a relief.

Mon, 17 Sep 2007 03:48:24 GMT

There is hope.

Sun, 22 Jul 2007 23:30:13 GMT

I just feel like things continually disapoint me.

Fri, 13 Jul 2007 04:30:28 GMT

i really need to learn how to turn off my emotions. well, more specifically my heart. yeah, if i could figure out how to do that, then things would be ok. until then i guess i'll just keep hurting myself and feeling like shit

one more thing and im out

Thu, 14 Sep 2006 02:37:08 GMT

ive had it. if there is one more bullshit thing that happens at work, im ready to quit. ok, so heres the story:

2 weeks ago Mike and i got our paychecks. i guess Mike lost his, and so our boss Angela put a stop payment on his paycheck. well the fuckup she is, she stopped my check instead. so now all the transactions i had made in the week since i cashed that check, i am now recieving overdraft fees for 5 of those transactions. thats $30 a shot, or $150 total. So total I have -$355 in my account, when i SHOULD have about $85 in my account. seriously WHAT THE FUCK! and this isnt the first time something like this happened. one week during the summer Joe forgot to sign my check, and i deposited it not realizing this. i recieved one overdraft fee and Angela made me split it with her. with this fucking situation, if she does not pay it IN FULL, IN CASH OR CHECK, NOT MY FUCKING PAYCHECK, I am quitting on the spot. thats it. the end.

Sat, 19 Aug 2006 19:36:21 GMT

Well, I'm finally back from Vegas. I had more fun than I ever knew possible. When I get home from work tonight, I'll make a detailed post bout my trip and put up some picturese.

Sun, 06 Aug 2006 13:14:04 GMT

why is it that i always know how to screw something up when things are at their best? wtf is wrong with me?

Wed, 14 Jun 2006 02:46:10 GMT

Well, I've taken the plunge. I went out today and bought myself one of the new Apple MacBook Pro's. I fuckin love this thing. Its great. Now I shall see if it's true that I'll never go back to a PC again, lol. Also got a 60GB Video iPod. Still gotta hook up my old comp tho so I can get all my music off of it and put it on this computer.

Mon, 05 Jun 2006 20:21:51 GMT

for those of you wondering, yes, i'm still alive. just been so busy with school and work that i havent had a chance to write. besides, i havent had time to set up my computer yet, so im using the downstairs computer, which i dont care for. anyways, school's done, been workin my ass off. and got my grades in today, which is why im writing. I got a 4.06 gpa for the semester! figured thats worthy of a LJ post :-P

today was a good day

Fri, 05 May 2006 04:30:29 GMT

today definitely was good. i had musicianship ii this morning, and increased my understanding of musical instrument transposition, which is fuckin sweet. then after class, went with one of my teachers, Vic, to his house. checked out his humidor, which will also be my future humi. once i have enough money from work, im def buying one. on the drive back had a CAO Brazilia that hes been aging in the humidor for 2 or 3 years. it was a very thick, very full-bodied cigar, but i definitely enjoyed it. and as far as cigar buzz goes, it was great. didnt have it till the end, and literally 5 minutes after i stopped smoking, the buzz went way, which was wonderful. usually it lasts for a while. then went to Midi. saw Lana. she's really lookin good, was happy. im glad. i hope everything works out this time. shes been through alot of shit and deserves to be happy. im really glad. seeing a smile on her face made me happy. after class Mike and i went to work. work was busy, but good. after work, went with my boss Joe and his father-in-law to Buffalo Wild Wings. ate some good food and 2 32-ounce glasses of Heinneken. afterwards i was a bit drunk so fuck driving home. no way i was gonna risk it at that point, so i chilled out in my car listening to the radio. decided to give Rob a call. we ended up talkin for half an hour, even though it felt like 10 minutes to me. finally sobered out after the phone convo and drove home just fine. now im chillin with friends in the room and drinkin. had an irish car bomb with adam. then Tobey made an awesome drink that tastes like peppermint. awesome. a new fav. and its heavy in alcohol...it has grain in it. now im drinkin the remainder of a can of Guinness. you know, its funny, i discovered that when im drunk, im alot more thoughtful and philosophical. i just think more in-depth. i dunno. now im gonna go back to hangin out. now instead of workin 10-6 in Cromwell im workin 1:30-9:30 in Milford. its cool. ill get to sleep in. after i get outta work, chillin with Rob and Alicia Townsend. should be fun. ttyl all

Wed, 03 May 2006 15:40:49 GMT

Yeah, so it's official. I give up on love. I'm tired of stressing over it, over feeling let down because everyone else around me gets it but I don't. It's not worth it, it really isn't. If I happen to meet someone and it happens, great. But I am not gonna go out of my way to try and make it happen.

Mon, 01 May 2006 02:46:17 GMT

so, i'm gonna be home this weekend from thursday night to saturday night. who wants to get together and drink for cinco de mayo?

Sun, 30 Apr 2006 06:26:17 GMT

I really wish I just had someone to love. Someone to hold, to cuddle with, to lie next to at night.

Tue, 25 Apr 2006 05:36:20 GMT

Well, work on Mike's band Fallen Throne's demo is going pretty well. Just finished up recording. All that's left is to do a shitload of editing and mixing. But I am impressed with the sound of it. Moreso than I was the past few weeks. It's really finally coming together. Just a couple days of fine tuning and it should be sweet, although we did drop it down from a 4-song demo to a 2-song demo. The performances could have been a little tighter, but we'll see what I can do with it. Now its time for me to head to bed. I've got class in the morning and then work 2-9:30. Goodnight.

Sun, 23 Apr 2006 16:38:58 GMT

Well, for the next week, just pretend I don't exist, because I really won't be around at all. This next week is gonna be fuckin crazy. Monday I've got class all day and studio time at night. Tuesday I've got class till 1 and work from 2-9:30. Wednesday Class till 4 and work 5-9:30. Thursday class till 5 and work 6-9:30. Friday work from 10-9:30. Saturday work from 10-5 and then im goin home. And Sunday Work 11-6. So basically I will not have a life till after 9:30 this week. God damn this week is gonna suck, but hey, it brings me much closer to paying off my debt to myself for Vegas, and much closer to obtaining my new humidor or for the next trip to Vegas.

Well tonight was interesting...

Tue, 04 Apr 2006 10:16:02 GMT

Tonight was our first session for Multitrack Recording II. For those of you that don't know, we are recording Mike's band. So we have recording class at 5:30. We get there like 5:15 to talk to the teacher, figure out some of the logistics of our project. Class 5:30-8:30. As soon as class ended, we started preparing for our project. To sum up the evening, whatever can go wrong will go wrong. We spent 4 hours setting up equipment and troubleshooting before we even started recording at all. And throughout the evening, I had quite a few SNAFUs, but in the end everything worked out. Between class and lab time, we spent a solid 12 1/2 hours in the studio tonight. I learned SOOO much. I can't wait for next week. Hopefully it'll be a little less eventful. We'll see.

Sat, 01 Apr 2006 22:40:38 GMT

Fuckin sweet! Mike just gave me a call. His boss told him to let me know I've got the job at Pietro's Tuxedos in the mall! I even called Mike back to make sure he wasn't gonna say "April Fools!" after, lol. This is great. I'm no longer unemployed.

Thu, 30 Mar 2006 06:16:40 GMT

fuckin sweet! the new Tool album (titled 10,000 Days) will be released on May 2nd!

Thu, 23 Mar 2006 23:29:30 GMT

Fuck. My migraines are back, and with a vengeance. The loss of vision wasn't as bad as usual, but extreme headache and I actually had memory loss. Not the short term memory loss like usual, but like I could not remember the names of people I've known for months. I'm actually a bit worried about this. And again, the headaches moved throughout my head, from one spot to another. I really wish I knew what was going on.

Tue, 21 Mar 2006 23:05:04 GMT

GAH! FUCKING COMPUTER!!!!! I open the CD drive after listening to the album for the first time, and it starts closing again as the CD is only halfway out. the disc gets trapped between the tray and the rest of the drive. theres a scratch on it thats not that long, but so deep that on the front, you can see a small spot where the ink finish is gone. NOOO!!!! FUCKER!!!!

Tue, 21 Mar 2006 21:53:31 GMT

well, i'm only 2 songs into it, but the new David Gilmour CD is FUCKING AMAZING!

Fri, 17 Mar 2006 02:07:51 GMT

Well, I'm back. And DAMN did I have a great time in Vegas with Taylor. We had so much fun and did so much stuff, it would be impossible to write about all of it in here. Just wait for the pics. I should have them up early next week. Just gotta wait till I get back to my computer at school. If ya wanna know about the trip I'll tell ya about it, but theres just too much to write about on here, I'd never remember it all. But god damn, that was some of the most fun I have ever had. Def in my top 5 experiences in my life, if not top 3. Hell, for all the shit we did and the duration of the trip, probably my number 1 life experience so far!

Fri, 10 Mar 2006 01:18:15 GMT

Well, my spring break officially starts today. I'm just about packed and should be heading home soon. On Monday Taylor and I are off to beautiful Las Vegas and we won't be getting back till midday Thursday. I won't be online while I'm home as much as I usually am, but if you need to reach me, you can get me on MySpace or email me at CStrek99@aol.com . I'll get to my email sooner or later, although I doub't I'll have internet access in Vegas. Actually, no, even if I DO have access, I'm not going to go online. This Vegas trip is a chance for me to get away from everything, so that includes the internet. Well, I'm gonna go finish packing, but I'll post another update when there's actually something worth updating you with.